Poem

[Alex England]

I posted this poem by Bruce Lee in another thread in the mma section, but I wanted to post it again here as, for me, it says alot about my journey through life and towards recovery. It is beautiful and I read it most days, like a prayer.

I wish neither to possess,
Nor to be possessed.
I no longer covet paradise,
More important, I no longer fear hell.
The medicine for my suffering
I had within me from the very beginning,
But I did not take it.
My ailment came from within myself,
But I did not observe it
Until this moment.
Now I see that I will never find the light
Unless, like the candle, I am my own fuel,
Consuming myself.

[Sistersteel]

wow I LOVE it Alex. Thanks for posting that!

[fitbody]

I am your disease (ADDICTION)

i hate meetings
i hate higher power
i hate anyone who has a program
to all who come in contact with me
i wish you death &
i wish you suffering

allow me to introduce myself
I am the disease of addiction
cunning, baffling & powerful
that's me
I have killed millions
and I am pleased
I love to catch you with the element of surprise
I love pretending I am your friend & lover
I have given you comfort, have I not ?
wasn't I there when you were lonely ?
when you wanted to die
didn't you call me ?
I was there
I love to make you hurt

I love to make you cry
better yet, I love when I make you so numb you can neither hurt or cry
you can't feel anything at all
this is true glory
i will give you instant gratification
and all I ask of you is long term suffering
i've been there for you always
when things were going right in your life, you invited me
you said you didn't deserve these good things,
and I was the only one who would agree with you
together we were able to destroy all the good things in your life

people don't take me seriously
they take strokes seriously, heart attacks, even diabetes they take seriously
fools they are
they don't know that without my help
these things would not be possible

I am such a hated disease
and yet i do not come uninvited
you have to choose me
so many have chosen me over reality & peace

more than you hate me
i hate all of you who have a 12 step program
your program, your meetings, your Higher Power
all weaken me
and I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to

now i must lie here quietly
you don't see me
but i am growing
bigger than ever
when you only exist, i may live
when you live, i only exist

but I am here...
and until we meet again...
if we meet again..
I WISH YOU DEATH & SUFFERING....