Killing The Fraud!

[tankygirl]

Hey All, I have been struggling to get back on track, get focused, get my arse into gear for months now!Have gone from personal training in a gym and training 6 days out of 7, to starting my own business which has taken off, I know, I know, I should be over the moon having a booming business but my problem is that I now have trouble fitting MY training in and so I feel like a total FRAUD! I spend my days lecturing my clients about getting organised so that they are eating clean, staying focused on their goals, training their buts off and I can't even get in 3 decent workouts a week let alone cardio. Then there is the "almost on track diet" that I have been playing with for a month now... My excuse is that I am too busy with the new business..... my reality is that I don't have to confess my slackness to anyone and so its easy to find excuses to not train or eat right... I am going to use this journal to keep focused, get back into the game and get my old and now overly padded arse ready to compete in September.I have a photoshoot - gasp! in 7 weeks, currently sitting on around 19% bodyfat arghhhhh and have just started a Stan cycle. So tomorrow I start again knowing that I have to report in here every day... Focused, Controlled, Organised. Please feel free to virtually kick my arse and push my limits! Now I am off to the nutrition thread to try and discover a new food regime, I have been trying to rehash my old diets but I am totally over them and find it's easy to cheat on the amounts as I can convince myself that I will do extra cardio (that never happens!) As for training... I will post every days workouts and would love feedback on my choices.

[tankygirl]

Ok, have just spent the last hour chjecking out all the diet threads, getting my head back into the groove and have now made sure I have blocked out time for one hours cardio along the waterfront every morning and have a 3 day split workout in place with time blocked out between customers for every day... already feeling like the mojo is back!

[katt981]

Following along! Yeah, that "almost on track diet"... is where I am right now... LOL

[The Prodigy]

Are you looking to compete or just stay healthy?

[shankuan]

I swore i was reading my own story! lolol. I'm so with you there tankygirl! Welcome to Rx! I have also hit that bump where business is up and time for myself is in the crapper! But the good thing is you have recognized it and are DOING something about it!

Here you will find a great support system in the wonderful women on this board and certainly they will keep you motivated! Having the goals set and yourself organized is key in doing this, so you will get it done and I'll be following along.

[tankygirl]

Are you looking to compete or just stay healthy?
Hi Prodigy,
looking to compete again this September, but really for me its about Walking the Walk, i am a personal trainer and I expect my clients to focus on their goals and be fit and healthy, meanwhile i am being slack and packing on the fat. Healthy is my lifestyle, I am never completely "off diet" I eat clean year round it's just that lately I have been adding extra's to everything... for me it's fruit, it's summer where I am so lots and lots of beautiful fruit avaiable and it's being added to everything lol

[tankygirl]

I swore i was reading my own story! lolol. I'm so with you there tankygirl! Welcome to Rx! I have also hit that bump where business is up and time for myself is in the crapper! But the good thing is you have recognized it and are DOING something about it!

Here you will find a great support system in the wonderful women on this board and certainly they will keep you motivated! Having the goals set and yourself organized is key in doing this, so you will get it done and I'll be following along.

Thanx Shankuan and congrats on your business doing so well!

[tankygirl]

Started the day with a beautiful hours jog along the waterfront at 6am.... already feeling like I'm baaaacccccckkkkkk... Shoulders and abs later today...

[tankygirl]

Shoulders done
5 sets 5kg x 15 side lat raises
DB shoulder press
12 x 8kgs
12 x 9kgs
12 x 10kgs
6 x 12.5kgs
4sets x Cable side lat raises (light - due to right shoulder injury)
6 sets x 15 reps x 5kg front plate raises

4 sets x 12 smith machine front press 15kg
5 sets x 70lb cable rear delt rows
5 sets x 12 x 8kg incline read delt flyes

3 x 15 lying leg raises
3 x 25 med ball crunches
4 x plank on bosu ball 1 min

Food today was great....... until lunch... which was not that bad with a freshly made chicken wrap with no dressing... then the turkish delight pieces and two small (yes they really were small) cakes fell into my mouth... sigh. Back into the clean food now so I will call lunch my cheat meal for the week. :o)

[Sunnyday]

Hey tankygirl! Following along. We can all feel for ya. So hard to get back on track. Keep moving forward!! :D

[tankygirl]

Thanx for following everyone! It keeps me honest and DOES make a difference, I was going to skip the cardio this morning since my ankles and hips werer a little sore from running for the first time in ages yesterday and by convincing myself thatI should have Sunday off, but because I now have this journal I got my arse on the spin cycle and killed 30 mins of HIIT before breakfast. Will be training back & Bisceps this afternoon :)

[tankygirl]

Back & Biceps
Wide Lat Pulldown
15 x 60lbs, 12 x 75lbs, 10 x 75lbs, 10 x 75lbs, 6 x 95lbs
Seated cable row
12 x 75lbs, 12 x 75,10 x 95, 10 x 95
Straight Arm straight bar pulldowns
12 x 70, 10 x 80, 10 x 90
One arm rows
10 x 45lbs x 3
standing hammer curls
10 x 8kg, 10 x 9kg, 10 x 10kg, 8 x 10kg
Wide grip ezybar curls alternating narrow grip ezybar curls
bar + 22lbs x 10 x 4
Bicep cable curl - drop sets
8 x 50lb, 40lb, 30, 20
8 x 50, 40, 30, 20
8 x 50, 40, 30 20... OUCH!
Weeks food is cooked, packaged and in the freezer, all prepared for a week on track :)

[tankygirl]

1 hour spin cycle cardio at 6am.
Leg workout at 1.30pm
Smith machine squats s/setted smth mch reverse lunges
10 x 44lbs, 10 x 66lbs, 10 x 88lbs
Leg press
20 x 88, 15 x 176, 10 x 264, 10 x 264
hack squat
12 x 88, 10 x 88, 10 x 88
Incline Lunge
20lbs x 15, 10, 10, 10
hamstring raise on med ball
15,15,15,10,10,10,10,10,10
DB Side lat raises s/setted front raise
15 x 9lb, 10 x 12lb, 10 x 13lb
Mental note... don't do an hour on spin cycle on legs morning :)
Food is spot on today..

[The Prodigy]

I am with yah! Offseason I am a bad dieter and I pay for it when I prep, but I like having the ability to be a "normal" person and not stress about food for a few months. In this society work has gotten SOOO much more stressful and so had life in general that emotional eating is everyone's downfall. Glad to see you are back on track! Find motivation in the clients you preach to as well! Hugs!

[tankygirl]

No cardio today... my arse just could not face the spin cycle seat and it is pouring here so the outside world was out of bounds... Chest & Triceps trained
Shoulder injury flaired up after lifting a 20kg plate a stupid way while loading a machine for a client - damnit!!! so chest & tricep workout had to be light and lots of reps when I really wanted hard and heavy..
Smith machine flat bench press
12 x 22lbs (warm up)
7 x 66 - ouch!, so... 10 x 44lb x4
Incline db press supersetted with incline flyes
10 x 20lb x 4 press
15 x 15lb x 4 flyes
cable xovers
17 x 20lbs, 15 x 30lbx x 5
seated cable flyes
12 x 30lbs x 6
tricpe rope pulldowns
15 x 40lbs x 6
supersetted with seated overhead extensions
10 x 27.5lbs x 6
shoulder really complaining now... sigh...
food is back on track... although I managed to toally miss out on any coffee today and could swim in a vat of flat white right about now!!! COOOOOFFFFEEEEEEE!!!! shame is 8pm and pouring so a plain old instant long black will have to do :)

[tankygirl]

I am with yah! Offseason I am a bad dieter and I pay for it when I prep, but I like having the ability to be a "normal" person and not stress about food for a few months. In this society work has gotten SOOO much more stressful and so had life in general that emotional eating is everyone's downfall. Glad to see you are back on track! Find motivation in the clients you preach to as well! Hugs!

Thanx Prodigy, its great to know that we all go through the same struggles, and yes I'm definitely using my clients as motivation... walking the walk feels so much better than being a fraud :)

[tankygirl]

Yesterday was my day off and it turned into a crappy day... should have trained it would have got my head in the right place... felt starving hungry all day, just could not feel full, I think its the Stan kicking in, my wieghts are increasing and so is my hunger but at the same time I do seem a little more defined, who knows maybe it's just all in my ever hopefull head hehehe
30 mins cardio on the spin cycle this morning and it dragged... hell I hate cardio, is there anything that is more boring than sitting on a spin cycle... I must get a TV to watch in my studio!
Okay had a couple of clients then trained back and biceps... almost talked myself out of training, you know the whole "I should do this insterad" argument, but then just got stuck in and felt great afterwards, and really glad I did it.
As I had to fit it in between clients it wasn't a huge workout but better than nothing....
Wide Lat Pulldowns
12x60lbs, 12x75, 12x75, 6x95, 12x75
Lat P/down Behind head
12x45lb x 4
Straight arm cable pulldown
12x70, 12x80, 12x80, 8x90lb
Seated Row
12x60, 12x75, 12x75, 10x95
standing cable pulldown
10x110, 10x110, 8x120
Seated DB Hammer Curls
12 x 20lbs x 4.
cable curls
12x40lbs x 7 sets.
Food is still a struggle... but when I give in I am generally eating protein powder, yes eating not drinking... I make it into a thick syrup with just a tiny bit of water then eat it... what can I say, I'm a sweetaholic!!!

[tankygirl]

Chest:
bench press
12x44, 10x55, 10x66, 7x71.25
Incline press s/set incline flyes
10x22/15x15, 10x27.5/12x15, 10x33/12x15
seated cable flyes
15x20, 15x30, 15x30
shoved workout in at 6.30pm after a crazy day.

[tankygirl]

Spent the weekend getting ready for an official opening of my business (even though I have been open for a month lol) so yesterday I ended up grazing on fresh fruit and nuts most of the day with a little grilled chicken at the end.... wow totally crashed today! I forgot what a big carb day does to me... blahhhhh honestly could not stay awake until I took some pre-workout to wake me up, ended up double dosing to get through tthe day and then trained back 7 bisceps tonight feeling flat and unmotivated.
Food today has been spot on,the carbs hangover is a good reminder to me why I eat the way I do... yep the fresh summer fruits were yummy but the after effects are disgusting. back to low carb today and I can't wait to wake up tomorrow with my head back whereit should be!
didn't even write down the training tonight, I knew if I stopped to do that I would never get through it...

[tankygirl]

Trained legs yesterday:SMith Squat s/set reverse smith lunges - didn't reduce weight or reps for lunges15x44lbs, 15x66, 15x88, 12x132, 10x154Leg press20x176, 10x264,8x308, 8x308, 8x308Hack squat12x88, 15x88, 15x88Frog squat10x66lbs, 10x66, 10x66 10x66Incline lunges10x22lbs, 10x22, 10x22, 10x22food was great, right back on track :)Today no workout due to my shoulder/back injury was due to do shoulders but do not want to aggrevate it - sigh.

[tankygirl]

Did a quick chest session yesterday before going in for accupuncture/physio on my traps/neck/shoulder/back... could hardly move afterwards and got very little sleep last night..
Had a hell day today which started when I did my measurements and had gained 1.7kg (3.75lb) on the scales, accordinf to the calipers muscle had gone up but then so had the fat.
This caused my head to explode and doubt, dispair, disgust blah blah blah set in.
I then threw a rather spectacular tantrum which then bought on a deep & meaningful discussion with my hubby who is the poor bastard who has to do my calipers every week.
He then resigned from that job, don't blame him really as I have been a total witch with him. I never accept what he writes down but if it was a trainer I would never question them... This is totally wrecking our weekends as they continue to start with this measurement circus every week.. so no more of that!
Anyway after throwing a couple of things and doing a fabulous impression of a two year old I promised to sit and listen and he told me about this client he has and described how she behaves, eats, trains, the excuses she comes up with and then her dissapointment each week at her results... of course it was me he was discribing and it made me realise what a huge pain the ass I have been.
It also made me finally realise that i will never get to where I want to be because I am setting myself an impossible goal.
There is no way I can get into competition condition while I am eating an offseason diet, in the middle of a Stan cycle while trying to gain as much muscle as possible... I was trying to have it all at once and we all know it just ain't gonna happen.
Sooooooooooo once again I am getting my head back to where it should be.
I AM doing a cycle and I will use it to get/keep as much muscle as possible. I am actually going to accept that my goal is to get down from my current 18% BF to around 12% and I will work to keep muscle while doing that so I am only going to use the scales as a base for working out my BF% & muscle gain/loss.
I WILL add some cardio back into my routine and I will actually print out my diet not "wing it from memory" as I have been.
My mental picture of what i want to look like is someone who is about 4 weeks off comp, almost ready for a photoshoot, I want to be able to hold this condition if possible so that I am a walking advert of my profession and my ability.
Now I just need to find a trainer/diet coach to work with, I have read the diet coach thread and I have sent an email to one on there but have had no reply after a week... I would love to hear of trainers that others have used and loved....
A new day tomorrow... a new start.. again :)

[katt981]

I have to write down my diet or track it in fit day, because if I don't and 'wing it' like you said.. it just doesn't work. Good luck finding a trainer/coach!

[tankygirl]

Back & Biceps
Wide Lat P/D to front (60 sec rest)
20x45lb, 15x60,15x75,15x75,12x75
Straight arm p/d (60 sec rest)
15x70,15x70,12x80,12x90
Seated Rows close grip (60 sec rest)
15x60,15x75,12x75,12x95
Cable high lat row (60 sec rest)
15x110,15x110,12x120,12x120
Hammer standing DB bicep curl (60 sec rest)
12x20lb, 12x18lb x 4 sets
Ezybar curl wide grip
15x21lb x 3 sets
cable curls drop sets
8 x 50,40,30lb
8 x 60,50,40lb
8 x 60,50,40lb
Cardio - HIIT 35 mins plus 10 mins easy ride at end - total 45 mins
Total cals 645
Food:
meal 1
1/2 cup oats & 1 serve Protein powder
meal 2
200mls egg whites, with capsicum, onion, mushrooms, spinach
meal 3
100gms Quinoa, 95 grms Tuna in oil, 1/4 avocado
meal 4 (post workout)
1 x banana, 1 x protein bar (P17.7gms, C3grms, F4.3grms)
meal 5
120grms chicken breast 2-3 cups green salad
meal 6
1 x serve protein shake

[AnglicanBeachParty]

Don't panic, it's going to be okay!

What is your overall diet regime/philosophy?

How much cardio per week are you currently getting in?

[tankygirl]

Don't panic, it's going to be okay!

What is your overall diet regime/philosophy?

How much cardio per week are you currently getting in?

Thanx for asking :) trying hard not to panic, just want to feel like what I cam doing is actually working..
I have gone back to a pre-comp diet that is low carb in an effort to get down in BF%. I
have tried carb cycling diets and been succesful, also keto at another time.
I enjoyed, or rather handled both but when it came to cheat time on the Keto I was having a day not a meal and so of course the diet didn't work lol. The carb cycling was ok but I crave a cheat meal weekly and wasn't getting that.
I am a total sweetaholic so as long as there is some kind of sweetness in each day I am a happy camper, i presently get this from protein powder, splenda, sugar free maple syrup and diet jelly (not all together... well ok, maybe once lol)
I would kill to find an off season diet that takes me down to approx 4-6 weeks off comp condition and then allows me to stay there without feeling like I'm being starved and gives me enough energy so I can actually train.
Being on the Stan cycle makes me hungry, I also take Thyroxine due to total thyroid removal and that can make me chew through muscle pretty quick if I don't have a fair amount of food.
Cardio... blahhhhhh i haven't been doing much, sort of hit and miss, i start offthe week with 2-3 days but by thursday I just am too bored, I am trying and have managhed 2 whole days in a row this week lol, I have a spin cycle and find the boredom mind numbing, I do 'enjoy" HIIT on the spin bike, I do 35 mins 3 down 2 standing so heart rate sprints. I have no idea how much or how little cardio I should do so as not to lose the muscle I am trying ot keep...

Sooooo how does this all sound?????

[tankygirl]

Legs - Abs - Cardio today...
Legs & ABs 6am
LOW alternate lunges with 15lbDB
20 each leg forward , 20 reverse, 20 forward, 20 reverse
Planks on Bosu ball rocking
20,20,20,20 rocks forward 20 x backward
Frog Squats 60.5lb DB
25, 25, 25, 25
swiss Ball crunches
30, 30, 30, 20
Assisted one leg suat 13lb DBs
15 each leg, 15, 15, 15
Leg press 45degree
15x176lb x 4 sets
bench leg raises
25, 25, 25, 25
Cardio - 30mins 120bpm
total cals 745
food

meal 1 post workout
1/2 cup oats, 1 banana, 40grms protein powder
meal 2
200mls egg white omelette with capsicum, onion, mushroom, spinach
meal 3
95grm tuna in oil, 120grms quinoa, 1/4 avocado
meal 4
protein bar as above
meal 5
120grms chicken, green salad
meal 6
40grm serve protein powder

[tankygirl]

6am - chest, shoulders, tris
smith bench press (60 sec rest)
15x38.5lb, 15x38.5, 15x44, 15x55
incline cable flyes (60sec rest)
15x20lb, 15x30, 15,30
incline db press (60 sec rest)
15x22lb, 12x22, 12x22
side lat raises (60 sec rest)
15x9lb, 15x11, 12x13, 12x13
front delt raise plate (60 sec rest)
15x11lb, 15x11, 15x16.5, 15x16.5
bent over read delt fly
15x15lb x 4 sets
tricep rope pushdowns
15x40lb, 15x50, 15x60
triceps straight bar drop sets
8 x 80lb,70,60,50
8x 80,70,60,50
8 x 70,60,50
will do cardio later today

[tankygirl]

didn't get cardio in yesterday due to extra clients - not sure if I should be happy or not hehehehe
anyway today is usually my day off but got yesterdays cardio 35mins HIIt on spin cycle & topped up tris & Bi's.
450 cals burnt in the porcess
good day with food, due to a mid day 1st aid course my meals were a bit weird lost the omelet for morning tea and had a proein bar insteadas it was more user friendly :)
Tomorrow Back & Bi's
This journal is certainly keeping me in line so I'm really pleased I started it!!

[The Prodigy]

I always get stuck in bad habits when I first start dieting and then I get "the talk" and I kick the bad habits!

I never really cheat per sea but I push the limits a bit! lol

[tankygirl]

LOL Prodigy yep thats exactly what I do.. push the limits hehehehe

Back & Biceps & Cardio this morning, weights seemed down this morning not sure if it is the new pre-workout I tried or because I did extra biceps yesterday...
wide late p/downsn(60 sec rest)
20x45lb, 15x75, 15x75, 12x75, 12x75
straight arm p/down (60sec rest)
15x70lb, 15x80, 12x90, 10x90
seated rows close grip (60 sec rest)
15x75, 15x75, 12x95, 12x95
cable high lat row (60 sec rest)
15x110lb, x 4 sets
hammer standing bicep curls (60 sec rest)
12 x18lbs x 5 sets
Ezybar curls wide grip
15 x 38.5lb x 3
25 mins HIIT cardio on spin cycle
then....
Inhaled breakfast of 1/2 cup oats, 1 x banana, 1 serve protein powder :)
Now to get unsweaty for a day of clients, have a great one everybody :)

[AnglicanBeachParty]

Sooooo how does this all sound?????

It sounds pretty good! It seems like you know your body and its challenges (e.g., thyroid and sweet tooth) pretty well.

I wish you continued success!

[The Prodigy]

Workouts look solid! Keep up the great work! Post some pics and videos!

[tankygirl]

Workouts look solid! Keep up the great work! Post some pics and videos!

Thanx Gail :) Not sure about the photos or video... I love this forum because I can be open about my use of steriods, it is the only place where I can discuss problems, questions, information without the judgemental issues associated with women using them. It's not that i am ashamed, it's more that in my "circle" of the industry it is still a very taboo subject and the idea that a 52 year old would even consider using them would make a few brains explode around me :) I have to admit I enjoy that no one knows and then sit and listen to others saying about the disgusting deformaties and monsters that steriods create, I always enter these discussions with information to dispel the myths but since they are illegal and we all know where jealousy and ignorance leads some people, I would never be able to openly admit to their use.
sooooo unfortunately I really want to keep anonomous and unrecognisable on this forum. :)

[katt981]

Crazy how people judge huh? I don't share that info with anyone I know in my area for the same reason. I don't see it changing any time soon :( oh, yeah, that illegal aspect does play a little part......

[tankygirl]

Day off trtaining today and it has turned into a total headfark day... :mad:
I managed to convince hubby to do my caliper measurements and was bouncing on my toes like a kid waiting for an icecream when it came time to see my results... I have had a great week... worked my arse off...
but it seems that my body took the whole "work my arse off" thing literally...
I mean I was soooo happy with how I looked in the mirror, my stomach (my horror area - last to lose fat) had definitely gone down, could even see a little definition around the edges, I was seeing definition in my legs (tends to be there most of the time but did seem more than normal) a little shoulder seperation, yep all in all a happy camper.... dropped 1.2kg (2.6lb) in weight....YES! Looking great....
Then... calipers.... which tell me that i lost all the weight in muscle and gained a little fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
W.T.F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now Hubby is not trained to take the caliper readings but has had it done himself for a few years and I believe he is pretty spot on with his readings... but WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So now i have no idea what to do.............. I really believe it was fat not muscle I lost... I really believe I looked leaner n the mirror........... I now do not know what to do!
do i continue training as I was, shiiit the last thing I want to do is repeat this result next week
Do I continue the cardio????????????????????
What about the food which I have found great and not fitting perfectly into my schedule.....
Could it be the GAT Jet Fuel fat burners that leave me pretty jumpy...

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh Shiiiiiiitttttt NOW WHAT....

Woud love to hear how everyone else judges their progress!!!! HELP!!!!

[tankygirl]

Sunday afternoon training, decided to alternate weeks one heavy with lower reps one lighter with higher reps so this week is "heavy"
Chest, shoulders Tri's
Smith Bench Press
8x66lb, 8x77, 8x77, 8x88
Incline cable flyes
12x30lb x 3 sets
Incline DB Press
10x27.5lb, 8x33, 6x38.5 (did a total of 8 but was spotted on last 2)
side late raises
12x11lb, 12x13, 12x15, 12x18
Front plate raise
12x22lb x 4 sets
bent over rear delt fly
10 x 20lb x 4 sets
Tricep rope pushdown
15x50lb, 10x70, 10x70
tricep straight bar p/down drop sets
6x90,80,70,60lb x 2 sets
8x80,70,60lb
no cardio today
Yesterday was cheat day so carbs were inhaled :)

[AnglicanBeachParty]

Then... calipers.... which tell me that i lost all the weight in muscle and gained a little fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
W.T.F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now Hubby is not trained to take the caliper readings but has had it done himself for a few years and I believe he is pretty spot on with his readings... but WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So now i have no idea what to do.............. I really believe it was fat not muscle I lost... I really believe I looked leaner n the mirror........... I now do not know what to do!
do i continue training as I was, shiiit the last thing I want to do is repeat this result next week
Do I continue the cardio????????????????????
What about the food which I have found great and not fitting perfectly into my schedule.....
Could it be the GAT Jet Fuel fat burners that leave me pretty jumpy...

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh Shiiiiiiitttttt NOW WHAT....

Woud love to hear how everyone else judges their progress!!!! HELP!!!!

I think you keep to the plan and give it more time to work. And also, stop taking the caliper measurements.

When I compete, the progress is all by visual check. Since my coaches live out of state, I email them about a dozen photos approximately once a week. I let them tell me how I'm doing.

[The Prodigy]

Day off trtaining today and it has turned into a total headfark day... :mad:
I managed to convince hubby to do my caliper measurements and was bouncing on my toes like a kid waiting for an icecream when it came time to see my results... I have had a great week... worked my arse off...
but it seems that my body took the whole "work my arse off" thing literally...
I mean I was soooo happy with how I looked in the mirror, my stomach (my horror area - last to lose fat) had definitely gone down, could even see a little definition around the edges, I was seeing definition in my legs (tends to be there most of the time but did seem more than normal) a little shoulder seperation, yep all in all a happy camper.... dropped 1.2kg (2.6lb) in weight....YES! Looking great....
Then... calipers.... which tell me that i lost all the weight in muscle and gained a little fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
W.T.F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now Hubby is not trained to take the caliper readings but has had it done himself for a few years and I believe he is pretty spot on with his readings... but WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So now i have no idea what to do.............. I really believe it was fat not muscle I lost... I really believe I looked leaner n the mirror........... I now do not know what to do!
do i continue training as I was, shiiit the last thing I want to do is repeat this result next week
Do I continue the cardio????????????????????
What about the food which I have found great and not fitting perfectly into my schedule.....
Could it be the GAT Jet Fuel fat burners that leave me pretty jumpy...

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh Shiiiiiiitttttt NOW WHAT....

Woud love to hear how everyone else judges their progress!!!! HELP!!!!


Lay off the stims little lady! LOL!!!! Stop taking your bodyfat measurement with calipers, there is a HIGH level of error! Use what you see in the mirror as your guide and if you are inclined to do so go get hydro bf done!!!

[tankygirl]

Thank you both so much!!!!!!!!!!!
After I had calmed down (Yes way too much Stims lol) I decided to stay away from the calipers and just go by how I look :) I was going to use the scales to check on things but realise it will just mess with my head even more, hell this is supposed to be my off season and I am stressing enough to melt muscle while I sit still LOL
My workout today was a huge screw up, took the preworkout walked into the gym then due to a client changing appointments and mucking me around didn't train for another 2.5hours, by then I thought I was going to miss out altogether and had already esaten what would have been my post workout meal...
I have just started taking "Craze" as it is the next big thing here and honestly I can't feel anything from it, especially when it's 2.5 hours after taking it :) SO I was pleasantly surprised that after all the stuffing around my weights JUMPED up so maybe it does work ...
My Leg workout tomorrow will be 6am so that will certainly make me notice if it works or not, without a good preworkout I find I can't function through a leg workout at that time of the morning..

Anyway trained Back & Bi's heavy

Wide Lat P/downs
15x60lb, 10x75, 6x95, 6x95, 6x95
Straight arm P/downs straight bar
10x90lb, 8x100, 8x100, 5x110
Seated row close grip
10x95lb, 10x95, 8x115, 6x115
Cable high lat row
12x120lb,10x130, 10x140, 8x150lb
Hammer standing bicep curl
10x22lb, 6x27.5 x 3 sets
Ezybar curls wide grip
10x44lb, 5x55, 6x55
cable curls drop sets
8x60,50,40
8x70,60,50
4x80,70,60,50
cardio 30 mins HIIT
food is on diet no deviations at all excpet fot he weird tiing around my training...
Again thanx ladies for your words of wisdom about calipers and frying my brain... xx

[tankygirl]

ohhh and feeling brave so here are photos from my first comp (May 2009) and my 5th comp in (Oct 2010) if the crazy brain frying numbers are anywhere near correst I gained around 5kg (10lb) of muscle between shows..
Yes I have blacked out the backgroundon the first show, I was natural then and competing in a tested event, my last show I had completed my first cycle and this was a non tested event.
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[tankygirl]

ohhh and feeling brave so here are photos from my first comp (May 2009) and my 5th comp in (Oct 2010) if the crazy brain frying numbers are anywhere near correst I gained around 5kg (10lb) of muscle between shows..
Yes I have blacked out the backgroundon the first show, I was natural then and competing in a tested event, my last show I had completed my first cycle and this was a non tested event.
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[tankygirl]

Tuesday Training.. 6am Legs & Abs

Low Static DB Lunges
12 each leg x22lb reverse
12x22 forward
12 x22 reverse
10 x 22 forward
Plank on rocking Bosu
20 x 4 sets
Frog Squats
15x66lbs x 4 sets
Pulsing crunches s/set reverse crunches
10 x pulse 20xreverse x 4 sets
Smith machine Squat
15x66lb, 12x88, 12x110, 12x132
Leg Press
15x220lb, 10x286 x 3 sets
Bench leg raises 12,9,10,7
No cardio

[AnglicanBeachParty]

Nice back detailing on the pics!

[Bronwyn]

Hi I am a lil late here - I think if you are 19% of BF it is still nice for offseason, especially if you had a break. Maybe its me - as I am hypothyreotic and I gain always up to 20-25% offseason, so all what is under 20 (and especially when you have your thyro removed!) I see as good and I think in 7 weeks you may be ready to shoot - wait - how much weeks is till that NOW? :) Trainings looks fine and it is nice that you are getting on the track. Good luck in September. What class you will do? Figure or also WPD?

Nice definition on both shows, however the first - wow you were crazy ripped there! Smaller but ripped.... nice.

[tankygirl]

Chest, tri's & shoulders
Smith Bench Press
10x66lb, 8x77, 6x88, 4x99
Incline cable flyes
12x30lb x 3 sets
Incline DB press
10x27.5lb x 3 sets
side Lat raises
15x11lb, 15x13, 10x15 x 2 sets
Incline rear delt raises
15x15lb, 10x20 x 3sets
Rope Pushdowns
12x60lb, 7x70, 10x60
30 mins HIIT Cardio.

[Madison]

Love your avatar. need to get a copy of that to send to my boyfriend :)
Keep crushin it!!!

[tankygirl]

Missed Posting on Thursday & Friday... Thursday was a rest day and Friday trianed back & Biceps.
Food last week was absolutely spot on and yet I gained 900grms, which I gather is the 1.2kg I lost the week before coming back. I stayed away from the calipers, but gave in and compared my waist measurements which then lead to another meltdown... sigh...
After a week of compliments about how great I was looking from just about everyone who saw me those two stupid sets of numbers wrote me off and had me miserable for the whole day...
I now think that it really isn't the weigh ins that are messing with me it could be my nutrition, and with it being not a full keto diet and at the same time very low in carbs i am in that horrible place where I am not in keto and not in full carbs.. does that make sense??? Anway I think that by Saturday my body is exhausted and depleted and then I have a cheat day with extra carbs and my world lightens again...

So now to spend another week working on my nutrition... sticking to my workout plans as I am enjoying them.

If I really think about it I am happy with what the mirror is showing me, I am happy with the workouts, i am even happy with the food I am getting... will see what happens this coming Saturday...

Now to set the alarm for 5am so training can be on time tomorrow :)

[tankygirl]

Trained Chest, shoulders & Tri's Monday and was back in the groove, food is still as per diet but have increased the Tuna in one meal.
Did cardio first thing this morning then trained legs and abs around lunchtime. The cardio was HIIT for 35 mins and felt great. legs training was good but then half way through seem to hit a wall and by the time I had finished I was exhausted and about as down and low as I could go. Have struggled through an afternoon group fitness class with a smile pasted on my face when I really felt like leaving the class to do it themselves while I crawled into a corner and cried :(
Now have two more clients who I know will give me a lift but feel like I am struggling to hold it together.
Ahhhh well tomorrow is a new day so bring on tomorrow... and it helps that I have a mild sleeping tab for tonight as i haven't had a good nights sleep for at least 2 months... fingers crossed these work. I have been using ZMA but find I crash into a deep sleep for about 4 hours then I'm wide awake for the rest of the night...
Time to go and be energetic for the clients :)

[tankygirl]

What a week.... and now it's Easter Saturday... trained & did cardio every day during the week, ate great, happy with the results in the mirror, gave in and stood ont he scales this morning 1.1kg gain, but I am refusing to let it screw with my head.. Tracking down a coach this week whether it's by internet or a local, I need someone to take over and "control" things for a while. I am working hard on getting my business running perfectly I need someone else to run my training for now so that I don't let my worries about my training affect my business.

Back onto my normal Noxpump preworkout which makes me feel better, had a ridiculously stupid 3 hours sleep on thursday night and so my Friday was totally screwed, but last night managed to get about 7 hours... broken up into 2 hours at a time with 30 mins awake in between but at least I feel half alive today...

Not training today.. but wanted to catch up on the journal and keep myself accountable.
Have an awesome easter veryone :)

[The Prodigy]

Who are you going to hire? There are bunch of interviews with diet guru's on here as well as a thread about it you might want to read!

[tankygirl]

Who are you going to hire? There are bunch of interviews with diet guru's on here as well as a thread about it you might want to read!

Thanx Prodigy I have had a look at the thread and the interviews :) I have found (and I'm seeing him tomorrow) a local coach who prepares competitors which are all doing very well, love the way they look in the off season too, so it looks like my prayers have been answered LOL

Spent an hour on the spin cycle today, no training just cardio as I was feeling blahhhhhhh and the cardio helped clear my head.

Can't wait till tomorrow and the first meeting... woohoo love it when plans fall into place :)

[tankygirl]

Met my new trainer last night, new program started today, food has been slightly changed for the next two weeks then being measured again and see what has happened, then more adjustments... feeling fabulous now that I just have to do what I am told and my focus is totally back!
Chest & Tris this morning
Incline DB Press, flat bench flyes, cable xovers, skullcrushers, 1 arm reverse pushdowns, crunches
35 mins cardio and posing practice for 15mins later today woohooo can't wait to get those hooker heels back on!

[tankygirl]

Wow, been carzy busy with my business and the new training, posing cardio program and have had a hard time getting on her to log it all, but I have definitely been doing it!!
Have a four day split now which seems really easy after rotating a 3day split with only one day off. Now I get a day off during the week which I use for posing and cardio and then another day off in the weekend which I stay out of the gym completely.
Sticking to my food has produced a a.9kg drop on the scales in a week, although i am sure this is just water as i weighed in on easter Monday after a rather large carb up on the Saturday :)
So absolutely no cheat meals this week has made me feel better and more "locked in" and knowing that I have to rock up and be measured next Monday is keeping me totally in line!
Getting back to posing has been good and bad, love the feeling of aching muscles after the practice, don't enjoy the aching lower back, hate looking in the mirro and seeing the flabby belly!!!! That really is messing with my head!!!
My new training program is great with my weights all jumping up.... until I hit the 2 sets of 20 reps at the end of each exercise - gasp!!! then the swearing starts lol
Anyway although I haven't been journalling I have been keeping in line and I'm totally focused on my next comp :)

[tankygirl]

Hell I haven't been here since April... lots happened, new coach was good but could not get the body fat to move, we tried all the usual - low carb, medium carb, keto, clen, T3, but I bloated like a goldfish and the only time the fat moved was when I was on the T3 & clen together. couldn't live on that and in the end felt that the coach was grasping at straws and really couldn't help me.

Since then I have been on and come off EQ and had a break from everything... this caused old lady syndrom with hot flushes and night sweats, feeling old and tired and generally losing myself.

so after 3 months of going it alone I am now on a Primo cycle which keeps me feeling "normal" but have stopped all the other "fat burners"

I have found a new coach located in the USA and just when I was ready to start with him my car blew up and my beautiful dog became seriously illand died of invasive cancer.. This left me cleaned out of savings so now I have to rebuild them before i can start with the coach and I am feeling lost and desperate!!

So I thought I would start this journal up again and get myself organised so once I have the dollars I can be ready to work towards my next comp next year.

Wish me luck!

[The Prodigy]

Hell I haven't been here since April... lots happened, new coach was good but could not get the body fat to move, we tried all the usual - low carb, medium carb, keto, clen, T3, but I bloated like a goldfish and the only time the fat moved was when I was on the T3 & clen together. couldn't live on that and in the end felt that the coach was grasping at straws and really couldn't help me.

Since then I have been on and come off EQ and had a break from everything... this caused old lady syndrom with hot flushes and night sweats, feeling old and tired and generally losing myself.

so after 3 months of going it alone I am now on a Primo cycle which keeps me feeling "normal" but have stopped all the other "fat burners"

I have found a new coach located in the USA and just when I was ready to start with him my car blew up and my beautiful dog became seriously illand died of invasive cancer.. This left me cleaned out of savings so now I have to rebuild them before i can start with the coach and I am feeling lost and desperate!!

So I thought I would start this journal up again and get myself organised so once I have the dollars I can be ready to work towards my next comp next year.

Wish me luck!

WOW! Sorry to hear you got hit so hard! Losing a pet is not easy, as I am experiencing this myself for the first time in my life. Hang in there! Is their a coach you could use who is cheaper, so you can get yourself on a plan sooner?

[tankygirl]

WOW! Sorry to hear you got hit so hard! Losing a pet is not easy, as I am experiencing this myself for the first time in my life. Hang in there! Is their a coach you could use who is cheaper, so you can get yourself on a plan sooner?

Thanks Gail, but I amdefinitely waiting for the one you recommended - he sounds fabulous and worth the extra work it will take to get the finances organised :) Sorry to hear you have problems with your pet, it really is heart wrenching as they do fill up so much of our hearts with their unconditional love - hope yours gets better soon xx