Bre's Offseason: Learning to make it a lifestyle!

**figurebre** · 07-12-2009, 08:58 PM

It is never going to be easy for me.
I just wanna quit.
I hate my body.
I hate competing.
I hate dieting and cardio and training, I want to quit it all. I wanna be normal again and have a consistent weight and eat healthy and not flip out over my body image. I cant do this, this mental and emotional battle...I hate it all.
My body is so fucking sensitive. I can't do it.

**MsGuns** · 07-12-2009, 09:03 PM

Bre dear, check your PM or get on facebook.

**figurebre** · 07-13-2009, 12:33 AM

Sorry 4 the freak out, I am okay now...lol

1 hr of cardio tonight. Still breaking killer sweats...
I meet with the plastic surgeon early tomorrow morning. He is going to evaluate my scars (from the motorcycle wreck) and while I am there I am going to ask about the augmentation.

**buckimscl** · 07-13-2009, 01:41 PM

Hey Bre, just wanted to stop by to see how things are going.

**figurebre** · 07-13-2009, 11:31 PM

Superset 4x
20lb, 40lbs, 50lbs, 50lbs Incline chest press 20x
25lb plate front delt raise 20x
20 switch leaps

Superset 3x
40lb ez curl bar bicep curl
20 tricep bench dips
20 line skips

Superset 3x
60lbtricep press down straight bar 20x
20 pushups
30 crunches

Superset 3x
25lb Bicep cable curls 20x
30lb tricep cable extensions 20x
20x up and overs

Superset 3x
20lb lateral raises 20x
15 burpees

Superset 3x Abs
incline crunch with medicine ball
50 scissor kicks

45 min cardio

**dallas3** · 07-13-2009, 11:39 PM

Stick with it Bre, keep ya head up

**figurebre** · 07-14-2009, 07:33 PM

Went to the Doc yesterday. He said there wasn't a whole lot he could do with my scars. The one on my shoulder is called a "keloid" which means it is "raised" and dimensional. Some people are genetically prone to keloids but I am not one of them. My keloid most likely was caused by rocks, gravel and dirt that got trapped under my skin at the time of the accident. He also said estrogen plays a role in the formation.
To fix that one, he would have to do a skin graph taking skin from my hip (causing another scar) Still, I would have a scar as an end result, just a smaller one.

The scar on my knee is extremely thin skin tissue which he said could rupture if I kneel too quickly or get any sort of laceration. This one is really painful, anytime I hit my knee on something I burst into tears and scream my head off! For this he would have to take skin from my lower thight and yet again, Iwould have scars just smaller ones.
Getting the Scars fixed would cost $10,000ish and not to mention the weeks I would have to take off from training. Especially my knee...I would evperience a lot of hypertrophy..it just isnt worth it to me.
So as of now, I will keep the scars.

About to do cardio tonight with my buddy Erica. Erica and I competed in our very first shows together. She is now a Jeremy recruit and will be training with him too.

**Shadow** · 07-14-2009, 10:48 PM

Keloids suck. I'm prone to them. The good news is that over time you can hardly tell they are there.

**figurebre** · 07-14-2009, 10:51 PM

It kinda freaks me out that my scar is "categorized" you know?
I would rather just think of it as a scar. lol...
eww

**Shadow** · 07-14-2009, 11:00 PM

Never thought of it that way. That's kinda funny.

**RealLilSwole** · 07-14-2009, 11:04 PM

Girl I think you are beautiful scars or not!!

**figurebre** · 07-14-2009, 11:10 PM

Thank u

**MsGuns** · 07-14-2009, 11:19 PM

What did the doc say about getting boobs?

**sbfigure** · 07-15-2009, 12:26 PM

Originally Posted by figurebre

It is never going to be easy for me.
I just wanna quit.
I hate my body.
I hate competing.
I hate dieting and cardio and training, I want to quit it all. I wanna be normal again and have a consistent weight and eat healthy and not flip out over my body image. I cant do this, this mental and emotional battle...I hate it all.
My body is so fucking sensitive. I can't do it.

everytime i go shopping i feel this way. or every time i go out and see a skinny girl i feel this way (or look at my stick thin sister).. cuz i use to be a skinny girl myself--but i was not a healthy skinny girl. i have told myself ok, im gonna do cardio only and burn off all this muscle and b skinny again.. i do it almost everyweek. but i think i have finally come to terms that... when we are prepping....we look SICK!!! muscle is HOT... i absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE the way i look when im prepping. yes prep is hard and only is for about 20 weeks out of the year but those 20 weeks how great do you feel!?!?!?!.. so the body dismophia is soooo worth it come that time. today i was looking at pics from last year when i competed... i just cant wait til next year to go thru the process again and see where my gains are and how much better i may look!!! stick with it lady... ur strong, mentally and physically. anyone that gets themselves into this sport is. soo keep at it sweetie!!!! if you ever feel discouraged feel free to vent to me on FB!!!

**hulk7280** · 07-15-2009, 01:39 PM

Originally Posted by figurebre

I did plenty of cardio, lunges and plyometrics to keep my legs in shape. I was a little worried for a while because my legs were the last thing to come in. In between the Oklahoma Show and Jr nats, I did add in some high rep, low weight leg extensions...like 50lbs 50x. I think it helped me, I have noticed that when I train, the excess water i carry around floods my muscles and gives me an insane pump. For my legs..well..it released the water, u can see a huge difference in the lines I had in my legs for jr nats that I didnt have for the Oklahoma show.

Once it got close to the show, my trainer, Jeremy, wouldnt let me do the step mill! cuz my ass is so big and round...lol...so it was ALL RUNNING from there which helped trim the stems.

Thanks for the compliments

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I am doing MUCH better this week
I have received a lot of compliments in the gym and out of the gym...people can tell I work out!!! thats the best feeling ever...lol..sometimes I wonder if I even look muscular? I am weird. I know

This working 8-5 is going to kill me! sometimes I work 8-5 sometimes 1-10...by the time I get off in the evening, I want to sleep..not train! So my training split will be a little flexible..no training today... wayyyy to exhausted. Ill do some cardio later....

i didnt know the step mill makes your ass bigger or rounder? lol.. if that was true id have an ass the size of a house!!!